:: A Personal Hell ::

:: Thursday, February 21, 2002 ::

Withering

Why do I feel this way?
Like I will never be someone
Being used and tore apart
I need a razor
To cut out the things I hate
Need something to stop my heart

I want the end, to make you feel this pain
All the parts of me I discard I give to you
All this pain
Needing to die so bad…..You haven’t a clue

I FEEL SO ALONE
PLEASE LOVE ME
I FEEL SO SICK
LEAVE ME ALONE
I FEEL SO DISGUSTED
GO AWAY!!!!!!!
BUT KEEP ME IN YOUR HEART

I FEEL SO ALONE
PLEASE LOVE ME
I FEEL SO SICK
LEAVE ME ALONE
I FEEL SI DISGUSTED
GO AWAY!!!!!!!
BUT FUCK YOUR HEART

Drinking to keep my grasp on this world
The false feeling I always wanted
Come to me. Make it all alright
I need your soul
To make mine seem whole
Kill it all tonight

You freak whore I never trusted you
Just a fuckin trick
Rip me apart. With your little lies
My hate makes me shake apart
Enraged with love
Suicidal thoughts magnify


I FEEL SO ALONE
PLEASE LOVE ME
I FEEL SO SICK
LEAVE ME ALONE
I FEEL SO DISGUSTED
GO AWAY!!!!!!!
BUT KEEP ME IN YOUR HEART


I FEEL SO ALONE!!!!!I HATE YOU!!!
PLEASE LOVE ME!!!!FOR THE FIRST FUCKING TIME!!
I FEEL SO SICK!!!!!!!THIS HELL I FEEL!!!!!!!!
LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!BUT TAKE ME WITH YOU!!!!!!!
I FEEL SO DISGUSTED!!!!!!!!!!LETTING MYSELF BE RAN THROUGH!!!!!!
GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!TO THE HELL I LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!
BUT KEEP ME IN YOUR HEART!!!!!!!LIKE THE KNIFE IN MY BACK!!!!!!!!!!





:: WishKiller 12:16 AM [+] ::
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Delusions

Is this all a dream?
Time fading
You walk towards the darkness
The unseen

You feel immortal as you tread the way
Looking around like this is all yours
Seeing the open world before you
The filth .....The whores

As you walk ever farther
You realize this ain't real
You Scream....no one hears you
You can't get noticed,Can't....... feel

Looking on you see your self
Stepping off the sidewalk
Here comes a car
At the last second you feel the asphalt

You run over thinking it's someone else
Try to check for a pulse,your hand goes right through
Full of terror,seeing yourself die
Running like a mad man,,i can see you

You lived life.....took it for granted
Your friends and family meant nothing to you
Wasted it all away,, Ended up with nothing
Well you are scared not to live
But you can't die

So you go to check on your little daughter
You see her near a window,about to fall
Running to save her,Scared all to hell
You miss,she falls, she barely learned to walk
Bouncing......like a ball

You can't save her now
You never ever were there
People scatter to the scene
Staring at her blood matted hair

Feeling like something is crawling inside
Losing sanity,Growing twisted and psychotic
Trying to kill everyone in sight
Like you are not even there, an illusion
Forever locked

You lived life.......Took it for granted
Your family and friends meant nothing to you
Wasted it all away....Ended up with nothing
Well you are scared not to live...But can't die.....

Every thing goes black,Times seems to stop
Your heart pounds
feeling like you are about to die
Choking on your own tongue
In so much pain,you start to cry

All of a sudden you feel relived
Looking at the ceiling.Over at a few beds
You are tied down,wearing nothing but white
You hear a voice......(oh you are awake..good..time for your meds)

...................As you look away.............................THE DOOR READS ,,BLACK HILL,, HOME FOR THE MENTALLY INSANE,,POPULATION 666......The conclusion.......Nothing......Your delusion........................
Welcome to the rest of your life..HAHAHA


:: WishKiller 9:59 PM [+] ::
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